... now i found out that it's not that easy to handle any responsibilities especially to my part as the president of our institute.. to handle such large crowd was quite terrific - i enjoy leading them, but sometimes i got tired.. tired of beating all the deadlines..
..there are times in which i wish that i could be just like my other classmates - just a simple Senior IT student..but well, i chose to have a life like this..and i must prove to them that i can manage myself...
..it's really true that you can't serve two masters at the same time..how much more if your serving much of them - masterssSSS - ????
..i'm not complaining...i just want to express my undertakings or to let somebody understand it..it's just that sometimes i felt so out of place - a feeling in which i felt that nobody understand me or they are just thinking that i'm doing good in which i'm not...
..pressure????stress????or burnout???..a feeling in which i want to disappear and go to a place in which i can refresh myself...
..actually, i felt so afraid about my class standing right now...i gained 3.0 in my Human Resource Management subject...a kind of frustrating to my part,,,but why??i should accept this because i'm the one who makes my grades...that makes me feel so bothered...
..i want to concentrate more in my studies but i hardly find such time to allot for it...
..i'm an ITS president
..the EIC of our newly founded newsletter - CAPTCHA -
..a staff in our school magazine - DAVAO REEF -
..a loser dean's lister - (& trying hard to regain it)
..a head of our project group
..not to mention all the queries and uncertainties in my whole damned life...it's just about being me and my family is out of it...my family is very supportive and they are the one who made me strong and encourages me to continue my studies...
...to be continued...
